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Moderation is not my middle name. Still really obsessively focused on the work project, but wanted to do at least some linketies before my mailbox explodes.

Random notes: Caleb rocks. He's been working on painting my room. We're all loving having the Smithsonian channel (we dumped Cinemax and picked up Smithsonian, MGM, and a few others). It's pretty much perfect for those of us who get way too little time at the actual Smithsonian museums; they seem to have a bunch of shows that are basically tours of collections. Yay for that! Also, we're completely hooked on How The States Got Their Shapes on the History channel. Fascinating lens for looking at American history. I'd really recommend it to folks with kids who like educational shows -- along with another favorite of mine, How The Earth Was Made -- both are well organized to be kids' educational programming, and I'm surprised they're not marketed more in that direction. And I did see the Torchwood premiere last night, but I'll reserve comment until I've rewatched it without dozing through a chunk (it was 3am by the time we got to it). Grafton's also slowly recovering from the nasty bout of sciatica, which is really good to see. Also, my folks are coming to visit at the end of the month, and we're going to go to the zoo!

Grafton and I are rewatching Star Trek: TNG first season. Wow, what a massive nostalgia trip. Star Trek is a big part of my personal and family history. My very first date ever, when I was 13, was to watch the big 2 hour special pre-premiere show with all the old cast and new. Star Trek was family time in my household, too, and I've seen almost all of the Star Trek movies in the theatres with my family (usually at Dad's urging). It's overly serious for me these days, and I tend to MST it, but with a good bit of love, because I still have a deep fondness for its idealism.

Still rereading the Game of Thrones series; going slower this time, so I'm only about halfway through the second book, but I'm picking up things I'd missed, and enjoying the process.

After several months of not patient-instructing at all, I'm suddenly on the schedule really heavily. Taught Wed/Thurs this week, and will again next week, I think. That's been really nice. When I'm teetering on the verge of a mood shift, the really intense and positive interaction and reconnecting with my sense of fulfillment in teaching can help tip me over the edge, and that seems to have been a factor in my rather sudden shift this week.

In general, the house is coming together, and it's been a very social sort of place recently (it always is to some extent, but Cleveland winters definitely affect things -- so nice to be able to hang out in the garden and on the porches now). I do love having a home that indulges my preference for getting to know new people while still being a complete homebody. Speaking of which, the garden is coming along, although with a slow start due to the cold and rainy spring. And I found my most perfect utiligarment EVAR at Unique Thrift the other day (I think I paid the grand sum of $4 for it). I have a few different items I refer to as my "utiligarments" -- one piece comfy things that cover the legal necessities without making me feel too much like I'm wearing clothes. Frankly, 'housedresses' would be an equally appropriate term, but I can't quite wrap my brain around that. The new one is an ankle-length stretchy black sleeveless dress that's about three sizes too big for me. It's like my own personal tent, and I have never found anything that felt closer to not wearing clothes. I'm a happy nudist.

Also, I definitely seem to be hitting a hypomanic jag, although I can't predict how long it'll last. It's fun, but also requires me to pay more active attention to myself in order not to cause too much trouble.

I really do live my life in phases; I'd have to say it's at least partially a conscious choice, considering that I choose to be pretty minimally medicated for my bipolar and fibro, both of which have strongly cyclical elements. It's odd, and fun, and weird, and scary sometimes. I'm kind of predictably unpredictable. If anything, I think sometimes I wish the phases changes a bit more frequently, or regularly. Having a really internal and somewhat anhedonic phase can be helpful and productive in many ways, and calming to the brainmeats. On the other hand, "I may not want much of anything to do with human interaction for a year or so" is kind of rough on normal relationships. I'm feeling much more regular libido and extraversion sparks recently though, and I'm rather hoping that'll be going in good and interesting directions soon. I do miss that side of me, as much as it can be a huge distraction for the rest of my life and quite a time and energy suck. And I really miss not feeling averse to sexual geekery; that's the roughest part by far of the anhedonic phases. Not what I'm interested in doing, but what I'm interested (and not) in thinking about. Hard to have a major hobby and academic interest that's actively unappealing for long periods.

Tonight is prime rib night at work (the restaurant where we get carryout has prime rib on Saturday nights, so it's become a tradition). I have Sarah Jane Adventures for background. The past few weeks have been really high-volume at the helpdesk due to onboarding of all the new residents, but today it's a nice quiet day, I'm massively ahead on my project work, and I finally feel like I've hit a break where I can actually pay a bit of attention to what the hell is going on in the world around me. Caleb follows the news really closely, too, and it's been disturbing how many things he's mentioned in the past week that I had no idea about.

OK, on to some linketies (as I mentioned, I'm bad at moderation, so it might be a whole bunch of them once I get started). I currently have 615 messages in my Linketies folder, and another 415 in my inbox. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. Weird how humans start to conceptualize things over time -- in some ways my mailbox feels like a part of my brain, and when it's messy and out of control, I find it remarkably stressful. Not surprising, I suppose; I've had a mailbox as a central aspect of my communication for 20 years now. I do have such a hard time deciding not to at least skim things, though. Bulk deletes are ridiculously difficult for me to bring myself to (although I have done a few just to keep it down to this level).

Ew. I appear to be showing signs of an incipient migraine. Time to break for meds before _that_ gets out of hand. At least I remembered to bring more imitrex to work, and I have my uber sunglasses of doom. Also, I'm incredibly lucky that although they're frequent, my migraines really aren't very severe compared to most people's.

Hmmm. Given how long this post has already gotten, I'm going to move Linketies Proper to the next post.
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