I might get to go to the zoo tomorrow! Since I'll be home instead of working tomorrow afternoon, I might be going to the zoo with NL and his son. Will need a pretty intense power-nap between when I get home in the morning and when we go, and I bet I'll collapse again soon after, but it should be fun. If it works out, it'll be my first chance to meet NL's son, which I'm excited about (I may not want kids of my own, but I do enjoy having them about to teach and read to and explain things to).

Also, I did get my shit together this week and get some financial stuff sorted out that was hanging over my head. That's a big relief, although it does mean things will be tighter for me for a while. Now I just need to further get my shit together and finish my bedroom, which has been at the same point for the past month. Oops.

Oh, and although I accomplished nothing else during my "weekend", I did teach both Wednesday and Thursday night. Nurse Practitioner students, and I generally love working with them. All four students were pretty great, so it was happy and good.

Also, we'll have Amy's pug Bella tomorrow night again, so it works out well that I'll be home anyway.

OK, time for linketies, and Hogfather, and maybe a nice roast beef sandwich (I have a small loaf of fresh-baked french bread from one of the bakers, a little wheel of brie from the cheese vendor, and a rather ridiculous quantity of rare roast beef, because the deli vendor offered me a deal). I already ate my marinated artichoke salad, but still have teriyaki mushrooms and a half-dozen of the world's most awesome lemon bars, too.

Mmmm-tasty. Slices of the goat's milk brie wrapped in rare roast beef just don't need bread in order to be a most excellent sandwich. I do wish I hadn't forgotten to hit the fruit vendors today, though. Need more fruit.

2am: *phew* This is NOT how third shift is supposed to go! Major assignee team goes MIA, massive influx of calls, multiple conversations with my poor sleep-deprived boss about MIA team, etc, etc. I've barely been able to breathe since 11pm. At least it's kept the time passing quickly. Oy. Time to grab a very quick "hope nobody calls" break.

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On Wednesday evening I gave a talk at Kenyon College as part of their annual Take Back the Night Week, about how we can use social justice to combat sexual violence. -- Awwww! I love seeing my passions and my alma mater intersect. And my first TBTN was at Kenyon, and was a really important and tranformative moment for me (it was the motivation to talk to my parents, finally, about the molestation from my cousins that happened when I was young).

35 years of Hyde: Why the fight for true abortion access has only just begun

Likewise, you don't have to actually hit each other to use BDSM methods of negotiation and consent-centrism. "What kind of play do you want today?" is an important question to ask of someone who doesn't have any Officially Designated Fetishes, but still has desires and limits--which would be, yeah, everyone.
And you don't have to be non-heterosexual to question what gender means to your relationship. If "which one of y'all does the dishes?" is a stupid question to ask a gay couple, it ought to be an equally stupid assumption to make about a straight one. The fact that assigned gender roles are available for a straight couple doesn't mean they ought to take them on without question.
What kind of relationship you have is your choice, and one choice isn't better than another. What's important is that you make a choice. That even if you're you're monogamous, vanilla, and heterosexual--you're doing it because it's what you want and because you and your partner have agreed to it, not because that's what people do. What's important isn't what path you take, but that you know there are paths.
-- Yes, yes, yes, yes, all of this!
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Life

May. 6th, 2011 05:12 pm
So my "weekend" was actually pretty awesome. Wednesday started ridiculously early (for someone who normally works second shift), but the first real day of SANE training went really well, with some lessons for fine-tuning next week. I'm very pleased about all that, and it consumed most of Wednesday for me. Also, happy news about the stray dog the nurses found last week! He found his home; he'd been missing for two weeks, they'd given up hope. His owner was about 16, had him since she was 3, it was apparently a wonderful and tearful reunion. So yay for that! Also, apparently my folks have been adopted by a puppy. I'm pretty pleased about this; I think it's really good for Dad to have a dog, even if he's been hemming and hawing about taking on the responsibility again. Typical Dad, he slipped it into the end of an almost totally unrelated email forward from one of his favorite theologian bloggers. Her postscript was
"I would add:
If you can love unconditionally,
If you can greet your loved ones with joy everyday without fail,
If you can find Christmas happiness every time you take a walk...
Dogs do teach us a great deal if we will observe them..."

His bit at the end:
Your addition seems almost prescient for me.
Went for my daily walk yesterday morning and a puppy came bounding after me.
After the usual search for the owner, we have come to the conclusion this pup was "dropped by the side of the road".
So I am observing her: eat the cat's food, chew my slippers, and work her way into our hearts and home.


Hee! Had to call him immediately to find out what the hell was going on!

The rest of the weekend was mostly household project work. I did some cleaning, some yard work, reterminated all the network cables Cat had chewed through, and repaired the bathroom doorknob. I'm feeling moderately accomplished but very tired. I've been almost entirely offline the past couple of days (I often am on my weekends), and am doing some catching up today. I'm also working on some project stuff, though, since we're rolling out some new helpdesk software in the next weeks, so I don't know what I'll get through in terms of Linketies.

Also, currently reading Evolution's Darling, and enjoying it quite a bit. It's a recommendation/loan from [livejournal.com profile] serpentseye, and she doesn't generally steer me wrong.
Really good "weekend" this week; we got a great deal done on the house and yard, it was payday for me, due to unexpected TV-death we're getting a flat-screen TV for the first time (just in time for the next Doctor Who episode tomorrow, which was a factor when deciding how much we were willing to pay for shipping) and the SANE training went really, really well. Also, Ringo does not like baths, and never just gives up and takes it (he actively fought to escape the whole damned time) but at least he forgives quickly. Given that he seems to consider it his job to turn himself utterly grey exploring odd corners (saves us on dusting, I suppose), this is good. And Leroy got his massive spring trim and a bath. I only trimmed from the neck down so far, so he's looking extra silly. All the long neck hair on the back of his head is giving him quite a mullet. Also, my folks and sibs are all safe from the rash of tornadoes in Alabama in the past few days, but not from lack of trying, at least on my folks' part. Mom and Dad decided to drive _through_ the tornadoes, up to northern AL for a clergy campus at a summer camp. *headdesk* Apparently they missed one of the tornadoes by a few minutes. Not sure where in hell they'd've found a basement at Camp McDowell, had the storms come their way once they arrived. We had really high winds up here, but nothing anywhere near so catastrophic. They made a mess of the yard and porches, and I know power was out in some areas, but we just had a quick flicker.

Also, I'd like to fall over go boom now. So very, very tired. Still, I actually did some of the yard work and some of the housework and feel much less useless and slackerish. Grafton's mostly responsible for the lovely new flagstone paving replacing one of our corners of gravel and dirt, though. It really expands the feel of the little side yard, and it now feels much less like sitting on the berm of a highway. Grafton got a line on a bunch of free bricks and flagstone (yay!) due to a friend being foreclosed (boo!), and is collecting even more today. He's already replaced the border of another side yard bed with brick, and things are looking less trashy every day. I actually think we may not hideously embarrass Christina when her house is on the homes tour on the 15th of this coming month, so hoorah for that! I took some pics of the progress the other day, and will try to get those uploaded soon.

The SANE (sexual assault nurse examiners) training was yesterday, and I'm really, really excited about the program we're creating. This was our third meeting, and first trial run-through of a session. Despite some dog-related delays to starting (one of the nurses found a stray in the parking lot, and was waiting for the APL to show up, so we all ended having a nice break out there for a while), it went wonderfully well. There are two experienced SANE nurses running the SANE training program, one trainee for us to practice on (an awesome, and hysterically funny, firecracker of a woman), Casey coordinating it for the Sim Center, and Amy and I working in a dual role-play/instructor role. It's the duality of our role that's really complicated in terms of design of the program, so this was a chance to try out some ideas about ways to handle that. It was also the first chance for Casey and the SANE instructors to really see what we can do, in terms of pelvic exam technique training. We impressed them, and I'm proud. We got hugs and high-fives on the way out; I think we did ok. Also, I survived doing something vaguely related to acting. That's a huge phobia for me, so I'm very pleased.

Some part of my brain is still wrapped up in my dreams from this morning. I don't precisely recall them, but that isn't stopping my brain from meandering back into whatever feeling they were giving me. I've been having more vivid dreams recently in general, I've noticed. I suspect it's a seasonal thing, since I haven't changed any meds recently.


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Honestly, I don't care if folks kill themselves or their own kids by not vaccinating. It's sad, but it's their decision to live with. Unfortunately, it's not usually what happens. What happens is that they get other people sick. Infants too young to be vaccinated, people with HIV, the elderly, etc. Those are the people who die. That's what makes me ragingly angry about this topic. It's like antibiotic overuse; it endangers all of us. It isn't a decision that can happen in isolation. Questioning everything is good. Refusing to accept that once in a while the answers actually line up with with some element of the "mainstream"? Cutting off one's nose despite one's face. There's a lot to fight about our hugely fucked up medical system, this just isn't it. I highly recommend Jerry Avorn's Powerful Medicines: The Benefits, Risks, and Costs of Prescription Drugs as a starting point, although I've also found that almost anything by Atul Gawande is also well worth reading (more of a surgical focus there, though).

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Still really, really physically exhausted today, and also still definitely hypomanic (which makes it really hard to get the sleep I need to recuperate). Leaving for Preterm in a couple hours, after a friend drops by. It's payday, so lots of errands, but since Tarma decided I needed to be up at 6:30, I've gotten a decent amount done already. I'm still catching up on Linketies; some stuff I'm posting I haven't actually gotten a chance to read yet (sometimes Linketies serve as much as a reading list for me as for others). Be aware there may be some stinkers and some duplicates in here.

Last night was really excellent, despite being so tired. Got a bit of a nap before patient-instructing, and had a great session with some nursing students. Being somewhat manic makes it much easier to be really "on" as a teacher, and I do enjoy that. Then had an awesome meeting back here on planning the new SANE program, and I'm so excited about it, and how it looks like we're going to be able to shape it to be the best possible program. We're all passionate about it, and I think things are coming together really well so far. Also it means working with/for Casey, which is all sorts of awesome. Hoorah for feminist sociologists who "get it"! It also looks like we'll have a lot of support for fine-tuning our own skillsets for this, and I'm very pleased about that. I've been patient-instructing for a decade now, and I still keep learning more about how to teach better, more clearly, more efficiently, more memorably. This is where a great deal of my passion lives, and I'm always interested in figuring out new ways to use my particular skills and comfort to do more forms of education. It was also a fun social night, lots of intoxicated yelling at the TV (RuPaul's Drag U), and lots of conversation. Grafton's heading out for Frostburn tomorrow, so he's all busy packing and planning. I'm making notes everywhere so I don't forget to handle the stuff he normally does, like picking up the CSA delivery on Saturday. Can't wait! Last time's was nom-licious.

Lots of stuff I want to write about, but the rest of today's going to be pretty full, I think. Grace stopping by (now that I know two Graces, I need to figure out a clear distinction), then Preterm, maybe with a bit of Farkas shopping on my way in, then home and Erin date-night, then my friend Nikki is in town, and she and Casey and I and some others are getting together.

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I will provide independent living services to otherwise homeless young people who may be gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgendered.


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Finally, finally, finally finished the interminable KB cleanup work I've been doing since mid-January. Such a relief! Lots more to do before we move all the info into the new system, but it's a major milestone, and at least a bit of a break for me.

Also, we're finally getting into something resembling spring thaw. This would be much more awesome if it did not also herald the beginning of the GodAwfulPostWinterDogPooCleaning of the yard. Got started today. Ew. Much ew. Still lots too frozen to tackle, even with the real shovel. Still, it's progress, and by the time I've got that all done, maybe it'll be garden prep and porch-painting weather. I can hope.

Tomorrow's going to be busy; volunteering at Preterm, then straight to patient-instructing, then home for a SANE prep meeting.

Now I need to catch up on Linketies, Ramblings, and computer documentation for Mom, as well as my very backlogged email account and checking in on folks on LJ and Facebook. That's going to take a few days to get back to my usual status quo of only being moderately behind on everything.

Also, Kirikou and the Sorceress is really quite charming; I enjoyed it immensely. Highly recommended for kids and adults, as long as you're not bothered by large amounts of totally non-sexual nudity.

OK, on to the Linketies!
So excited! Had a really good meeting today with Casey and folks from the SANE program at Metro. We're designing a new element for their training program, and I'm really excited about it; I've been interested in working with the SANE program for years. It's a great chance to make use of the skills I've learned in the past decade of patient-instructing in order to support a program I really believe in (I love patient-instructing, but this is a great chance to do something additional). It'll be quite different from patient-instructing; we'll be role-playing through the whole sexual assault kit exam, from interviews to sample collection, but there are a lot of skills I already have that will apply well, especially in terms of handling the spec exam. So, yes, very excited!


And also, just a couple of random followup thoughts from my previous ramblings:

I tend toward definitions that err on the side of inclusiveness

Intimate personal activism something I learned from feminism and especially queerness (out as political)

Oddly, I'd say evangelism is a form of activism. Weird that I have such a squick about it.

I'm really tired, or I'd expand on those (they're the notes I sent myself when the thoughts crossed my mind).

Life update

Aug. 4th, 2010 07:30 am
It's been a relatively trying few days around Villa Villekula. One of those "everything that can go wrong will" sort of times in a bunch of different ways, leading to a bunch of grumping and touchiness from all of us. Here's hoping we're mostly past the ridiculously bad luck we've been having on all fronts. On the positive side, I've finally gotten my laptop sorted and working again. Also on the positive side, our new rubber flooring works as we wanted, and blocks water getting to the basement exactly as hoped. On the negative side, we discovered this because we moved the hot tub back into the room and refilled it. And discovered at 3am that it had developed a leak. It's all drained again and we're working on identifying the source. If we're really damned lucky for once this week, it'll be an relatively easy fix, but after the last few days I'm not feeling like expecting "really damned lucky" on much of anything. Argh. Also, the weather's fucking with all of us, and the associated achies combined with all the crap of the last few days have gotten us downright snippy at each other on a level we very rarely reach (thankfully). The truck's going into the shop for engine evaluation on Thursday, we finally got the blood work done on Fatty Lumpkin and are awaiting results of that (expecting hyperthyroid, and hoping for it among the possible explanations for his weight loss, etc, since it's relatively easy to treat).

This weekend was bizarrely up and down for me. A bunch of good social stuff: Casey's party, which also involved seeing the east side folks I really dig, and getting hanging out time with Katy, a date with Katy Sunday morning, seeing my brother Matt before he headed down to AL again, seeing Nikki on her way through town. And right in the midst of all of it, two conversations totally unrelated to the socializing that both hit me the wrong way and left me more upset and touchier than I've been in a long time, a half-hour bathroom crying jag at about the worst possible time, and just generally feeling like my emotions have been yo-yoing all over the place. That was mostly Sunday and Monday, and I'm feeling more like myself now, thankfully. Yesterday was a migrainey and physically craptastic day, but my overall mood improved throughout, despite it being "the day nothing went right" to such an extent that we couldn't even conquer the sandwich-making process.

I'm teaching tonight, and hopefully hanging out with Casey and household afterwards, but otherwise planning to have a pretty slow-moving day with a lot of sleep, a lot of West Wing (I'm toward the end of Season 4 now), and maybe some more priming and painting. Once we get four or five of us around, we can flip the hot tub up and see about identifying the leak. Wish us luck on the results of that endeavor.

Oh, and speaking of teaching, I did have a really enjoyable conversation with Liv and Grafton yesterday. All three of us work in the patient-instructing program, and every so often we get to geeking about teaching approaches. It's invariably a learning experience, since it gives us a chance to compare how we're teaching various aspects, and pick up suggestions and tips from each other. And because each of us works solo with the students (Liv and I teaching gyn, Grafton teaching GU), it's not a feedback and fine-tuning that happens as much when we're actually at work, so I really value when we end up having those conversations outside of work. Oh, and Casey just got a job working on getting the Sim Center's GTA/GUTA program up and running, so now we get to geek with her about this stuff, too. I'm so psyched she's going to be handling that. We don't know if the two programs will end up merging eventually, and I feel much more comfortable about that possibility with someone I trust as much as Casey in an oversight position.

I really do love my social circle. I was reminded of that by the party at Casey's and the conversations with Nikki and the household and Katy. I love how "silly and fucked up" can integrate so well with discussion of politics and sociology and feminism and health care and such. I suck at small talk. I only really come alive in conversations when I'm passionate about the topics at hand, and I love having so many people in my life who also value those kinds of discussions.

Also, funny Coco story. It's not one of our Coco weeks, so I tend to go out and see her about once a day when I hear her in the yard next door. Usually I just stick my fingers through the fence and she pressed up against it for scritches, but I decided that I'd walk around and come sit on Christina's porch so I could hang out with Coco more easily. Damn, did that confuse the little fluffhead! She just didn't know what to do with me being on the wrong side of the fence. She came running up, bounced backward again, lather, rinse, repeat, went to get Christina, came excitedly bouncing back _again_, still staying a foot or so away from me because it was confusing her so much that I was on the wrong side of the fence. She finally climbed up on me after I moved down from sitting on the step to sitting on the ground (she gets really freaked out by people being taller than her, which makes life as a 10-inch-tall dog a bit tricky). It was all very silly and giggleworthy.

So, yeah. That's where things are at the moment. A run of bad luck and craptasticness, but life doesn't suck.
So, apparently Mom's in the hospital with dangerously high lithium levels. They found this out because she took a bad spill the other day (she may have a broken nose, as well as generally being rather beaten up and battered all over), and when she went to the doctor to get checked out, they tested her blood levels to see if that was the cause of the instability at the root of the problem. Good thing, too. Dad says if they'd been any higher, they'd be talking dialysis. Just talked to her, and she's frustrated, but doing ok.

Patient-instructing tonight was good; I always enjoy when we get the residents through, since it means working more on the medical history side of things, as well as running through the actual exam. Both residents were really engaged and interested, and it was a good, if long, session as a result.

Just waiting for Casey to get here now, and still trying to hide from the heat as well as possible.
Still feeling all introverted and not much like being social outside the household. That led to an interesting conversation last night (with Bec, Caleb, and Grafton) about why I'm able to psychologically recharge when hanging out with them, but not with other people, no matter how much I enjoy their company. Lots of rambling about the distinction between being welcoming and being hospitable (I share well, but I'm a lousy host; thankfully others in the house are better at that), and the fundamental differences, especially in my mental state, between being able to be social or not in a shared space, as opposed to hosting. The latter requires a level of psychological alert that is draining in a similar way to going out to be social. Fun and good, but something I can only handle for a limited time, and then I need to be home and either be alone or only deal with the household for a while.

Frequently when I'm all withdrawn to the outside world, I'm still very chatty and social within the household. It's part of why I don't look like I'm anywhere near as introverted as I actually am. It's also part of what really works for me about living rather communally; I get the social interaction I need without the stresses I'm so variable at coping with. I'm not always certain whether I'm running out of psychological steam because of fatigue, or depression, or being overwhelmed by the rest of life, or just flat-out introvert limits -- all of them factor in at various times -- but it's definitely a huge factor in how I interact with the world. This past week I've been mostly offline, almost entirely off IM, mostly just working and hanging out with the household and watching Farscape marathons, and it's been exactly what I needed. Relatedly, I tend to do best when I'm being social outside the house if the socializing revolves around an actual activity, especially one with clear start and end points. I do well with set time limits so that I can gauge my energy level and adjust as necessary to maintain throughout that time period. I rather hate that I don't do unexpected or unplanned well at all anymore, but it's true. If I'm going to be social on a Wednesday evening, I'm planning and adjusting not just that day, but several days in advance. And I cancel plans a lot. I do. It sucks, but I'm not sure it's worse than the alternative of dealing with being social when it's going to be a slog, instead of a pleasure. I'm no fun for anyone like that.

On a very positive note, I'm finally back to both patient-instructing and clinic escorting, and that's really making my life feel whole again; I've been missing both quite badly, although worrying about taking them back up because of overall energy concerns. Top priority is managing work as well as possible, both because I'm a large part of the household bacon, and because I dig my boss and don't want to make his life difficult. I still end up having to take a decent number of FMLA days, though, so if either patient-instructing or escorting were directly affecting that, they would have to be no-goes. Thankfully, I now have a schedule where I'm teaching on non-work days, and that seems to be working out well. I'm probably going to keep it to just once a week instead of both days, but that's more than I was necessarily expecting I'd be able to commit to. It was really great to be back to teaching, and I had good students both this week and last, so that was awesome. Nice to remember that this is something I'm really damned good at.

Clinic escorting is trickier. The combination of early hours, weather exposure, physical demands, and having to go to work almost right afterward makes things difficult, but at least not impossible. My experience yesterday was pretty ideal; I wasn't flaring badly, the weather was good, I was at the Center where escorting starts an hour later, and the protesters left early so I was able to get a nap before work. Given all of that, I was able to do my full evening shift yesterday at work without any notable problem; I didn't have to take a stim pill, and I didn't have to nap during my lunch. I'm still going to have to feel out how things work when any of this is less than ideal, and I certainly don't intend to go back to escorting 2-3 times a month like I was for a while (we were short-staffed), but once monthly during the warmer months is seeming pretty feasible without triggering flares. I'll just have to figure out exactly how early in spring and how late in fall I'll actually be able to be reliable. I do think I probably need to stick with the Center instead of Preterm, though. The hour extra sleep when I'm on a second-shift schedule anyway makes a big difference, as does the fact that overall, it's likely to be about three hours outside at the Center, and closer to five at Preterm on a hectic day. This is something of a bummer, since I'm really fond of working Preterm; it's more stressful but also more interesting and challenging. And I have a lot of friends who work there, so it's nice to get a chance to say hi. Also, it's shaded, and I fear the sun. I burn like a burning thing, even with sunscreen. The Center is entirely exposed in that regard. Boo. Need to do some better planning in that regard.

So, anyway, life update. There ya go. Now back to catching up on links and life and movies (Netflix streaming may be gone from work, but now I've got a desk drawer full of actual DVDs!)
Life's going pretty well, I'm just in a low-energy mode. The weather's been going all over the place, which always messes with me, and a good deal of the past week has revolved around sleep and more sleep. We did get our weekly hang-out with Casey and Bill, which is always fun, although a bit odd when combined with a plumbing emergency.

Thursday I was finally back at patient-instructing after months and months, which was a good feeling, although a touch nerve-wracking in the usual "do I remember how to ride a bike" sort of way. It was a great session, though. 3rd-years, who already have some experience, and are basically getting evaluated and fine-tuned, most of the time. It was a good first night back, and a good reminder of how much teaching changes my mood.

Then I got a chance to see [livejournal.com profile] serpentseye and [livejournal.com profile] calialleykat and we played Ticket to Ride with Grafton, which was a nice, mellow evening. Oh, and Mom almost ended up coming up for a brief, poorly timed, potentially stress-inducing visit, and there were lots of calls back and forth sorting all that out. I really do empathize with her frustrations about the limitations her psychiatric unpredictability puts on her life, especially given how much functionality she's regained in recent years. But she still scares all of us behind the wheel, and even the most moderate travel plans often end in her getting overstressed and having additional issues for a while, so it blows to have to gang up on her and say "no, driving six hours to Mississippi solo and spending four days there alone while Dad goes to IN for the hockey games with James is not a good idea". I think she's still pretty pissed at me for having to say it to her and explicitly back up Dad on the point. Mom and I connect really well in general, which does mean that I'm the one most likely to be able to say hard stuff to her without a major blowup occluding the original point. So that's all been a bit exhausting, and just generally sad, because I do so wish for her to be able to have that level of functionality back, and it's unlikely to happen again in her life, I suspect.

Also, the short-term scraping for change brokeness of the household was at its peak this week, adding a lot of stress. Thankfully, that's been mostly eliminated by a combination of household members kicking in in various ways, friends being awesome and generous, and as of last night, the replacement SSI check we covered for J showing up. Huge relief, and should get us through ok 'til the refund gets here and we can handle all the big stuff that's been waiting.

It's also been a Coco week, and that continues to go well, although we've hit a plateau in terms of progress with her, at least for the moment. She still acts like the floor inside is Hot Lava, and just freezes when she's set down on it, although she'll comfortably run around in the yard with Tarma and Leroy now, and she's fine with having them on the couch with her. It's just going to take time; we're a radically different environment than her home next door, and it's a lot of new stuff to adjust to. I'm happy she's already this happy and comfortable hanging out with us, even if she insists on staying on the couch the entire visit. LovelyNeighbor continues to be lovely, though. This week, along with the pet-sitting cash, and the cash she insists on paying us for use of our wireless, she dropped off a box of tasty european chocolates, and helped us out with water when we had the plumbing issues Wednesday.

Caleb and Grafton have been getting hugely motivated on the house, and all of the rest of us have been getting a bit more energetic about things too, as a result (me least of all, probably -- I spent a lot of time sleeping while they were working this week). It has resulted in a lot of minor and major improvements in the house, which makes it progressively more enjoyable to be here, so that's awesome. The basement lounge project is moving fast, and the kitchen is finally not scary for the first time in months. On the downside, we got a citation delivered, by bailiff even, for having put our trash out wrong back in October. So I apparently have to go down to the court about that, and I assume there's a fine involved. That's when we were stripping out the back apartment, though, and the problem was with how things were and weren't properly bundled. I don't doubt they're in the right. I'm just baffled at the delay.

So, anyway, that's what's up in life. Oh, and as we all figured would eventually happen, Netflix streaming no longer works from work. Ah well. I've moved the rest of Farscape into my mail queue, and it'll be along shortly. OK, I think that's actually all. Back to sleep now, it's the middle of my night.
Oh, yay! Finally, finally getting back to patient-instructing (NSFW explanation); I've got two sessions coming up in the next two weeks. I've been doing it for the past decade, with a few different periods of being away (almost always fibro-crap). And I always notice that getting back to it is one of the absolute best things I can do for my psyche; it's the form of activism that I'm best at and most passionate about. I've been away at this point for most of the past year, and part of that was last year's terrifying flare-from-hell, and part of it was the massive move process, and after that I was exploring whether second shift was going to be better for my health and minimize the amount of time I have to take off for FMLA. And that seems to have been working, although far from perfectly, but the price was a scheduling conflict with patient-instructing, and since I was still barely maintaining at my main job, let alone finding energy for additional work anyway, it was sort of a reluctant non-issue for a while. Thankfully, my boss gets why it's important, both in general and to me personally, and we've been talking from the beginning about how we could work the schedule to try to get me space for it. Me covering the weekends and having two weekdays off was actually his suggestion, once we were ready to go 24/7 and that became a possibility. We finally made the schedule shift in the middle of February, and I've been itching to get on the patient-instructing schedule since then. Since two of the other housemates also teach there (ours is a mixed-gender program, teach gyn and GU), I've at least stayed mostly up to date on all the little vagaries of the program, and I'm really looking forward to being able to be part of the work-chatter in the house again.

Now I just have to figure out if it's at all possible to get back to clinic escorting, at least occasionally. I technically have the time open; I don't start work 'til 3pm, and escorting happens on Saturday mornings. But escorting also really pushes my system, and adding that to an early morning/lack of sleep and a long day is the kind of thing that can trigger nasty fibro-flare crap. So I'm trying to weigh that all out. Mom's been suggesting I switch to another form of related activism, and I've actually looked into it a bit (volunteering at the clinic on one of my off-days, which would be inside and sitting down, not four hours of chasing cars in circles around the parking lot in every type of weather). The idea of really officially giving up parking lot escorting hurts, though, and I'm trying to find another way out. It matters immensely to me to be out there with the patients, standing up to the fucknuggets on the sidewalk. Now that the weather's better, I need to talk to Casey about scheduling for a single weekend, and seeing how I do with it. I think I'll know more about what decision I need to make after that. Just in general activism stuff is one of the big things I'm really feeling a need to rebalance in my life; I've been doing very little in the past two years because of flares and moving and other random factors, and it messes with my head. Creating the household is a form of activism for me on some levels (as a way of intentionally demonstrating alternate ways of functioning within our society), and so is couchsurfing (which we've also been out of since before the move, and will be for a bit longer), but it's not enough to leave me feeling satisfied with my life and my impact within the world.

Sharing information and addressing taboo topics is also fundamentally activist for me, and at least I feel I'm doing more of that these days, although still less than I'd like, and with less original content, and mostly in a very informal way. Off and on I ponder getting back into doing speaking engagements; there was a period when I did a lot of that, and I do miss it. I don't think I want to go back to running groups; I'm still massively burned out on that kind of organizational work, and having "bi 101" and "poly 101" conversations over and over. And I'm not the right person for it anymore anyway; my life is so far from that of most people who are initially seeking out support on those issues that I've become less able to connect and support than I once was. Two of the groups I founded are still running locally, although I'm no longer involved in either, and it's nice to see them from a distance - the poly group seems to be doing especially well these days - but I have no desire at all to be involved with them directly. I've pondered using blogging in a more intentional and less personal way, but I mostly feel like that territory is pretty admirably covered (especially since it feels like Greta Christina is writing the inside of my head, some days). I like helping to spread awareness about topics that matter to me, I like sparking conversations and thinky moments. It might still behoove me to spend a bit more time and intentionality in taking on specific topics in ways that are more tailored to do so; right now the manner in which I blog allows for that, but doesn't necessary encourage and feed it.

Also, last night's household chatter was substantially testicle-obsessed for some reason. Hey Caleb and Grafton; you're both right:
textually non-worksafe )
(there was debate on the definition of the term)
Relatedly, I'm currently watching John Water's This Filthy World. It's fabulous.

GIP!

Nov. 18th, 2009 08:04 pm
[livejournal.com profile] bec76 caught a couple of good shots of Shroom asleep on my head (her normal position, especially during winter). I'm very pleased. This is my cranky old lady cat; she's about 15 or so, and sleeping with her reminds me frequently of one of the most awe-inspiring aspects of interspecies friendship -- the trust. That we (and they) are capable of developing true trust between species never ceases to amaze me. I sleep with her claws right on my face, head, and throat, and it's ok. I trust her that much. She frequently sleeps with my face nestled in her belly. She trusts me that much. Seriously mindblowing, when one stops taking it for granted for a moment.

In other news, guess what I got for my 35th birthday?

A CPAP. Joy. Had my followup appt for my sleep study today. No actual apnea, but a whole lot of hypopnea (which is breathing too shallow to oxygenate properly), so it's worth treating and seeing how it goes. Another 2 months before I know about provigil, which is frustrating. We have to let me acclimate to the CPAP, see how I'm doing, and then do another full sleep study with the CPAP, and an MSLT after that, in order to know if there's definitely narcolepsy going on aside from the apnea/hypopnea. Frustrating result, but the NP was awesome (one of the NPs I worked with through patient-instructing, actually, back when she was in women's health), and I still really like
my neuro, too. They apologized for the crap with the last study, and no one telling me what was going on.

So I'm not thrilled, but especially since the hypopnea was so severe, I'm willing to give it a try and see if it improves my fatigue problems.

On the other hand, I am developing a serious loathing for those automated blood pressure machines. They cause me intense pain, and that sends my BP up, as well as being, well, friggin' painful. Today I had petechiae bruising over my upper arms from it, which at least gave me something to show them to demonstrate how much the machines suck. Anyone else have negative experiences with those things? I don't know if it's a body size thing; I wonder if it's just not capable of dealing with the fat on my upper arms, and I'm curious whether people with complaints come from across the size spectrum, or are clustered toward my end.

Talking to the NP really made me miss patient-instructing, though. As did the Around Noon today about the mammography/BSE recommendation changes. I'm curious how that'll affect our teaching, and I'm frustrated not to be able to be at work talking about it. Thank maude I live with Liv and Grafton, at least (they both teach, and I get a vicarious fix from their work-related chatter).

Also, Terry Jones' Medieval Lives just gave me a minor epiphany. He was explaining the purpose of heraldic devices, and one of those obvious facts that we totally overlook by being immersed in the modern world really clicked finally. Heraldic devices were so you knew who famous people were, because unless you'd met someone face to face, you didn't fucking know what anyone looked like! Once he said it, it was obvious, but it had somehow never really sunk in before. Now I'm wondering how our commonly used vocabulary for physical description compares to that of medieval times (there are all sorts of descriptive "physical feature" words that I never hear outside books anymore), and whether access to image reproduction has been a factor in how much less regimented costume is these days.

I found this out because I'm watching Medieval Lives (on [livejournal.com profile] grf's recommendation) on Netflix. From work. Oh, hell yeah! Just discovered last week that although almost every other type of streaming media is blocked, Netflix viewing works just dandy! I've been mostly watching things I know well enough to enjoy as "radio plays" (Doctor Who is great for this), since I'm usually working on things in other windows, but it's a definitely perk of second shift.

And in other work-related news, the Clinic's ergonomics guy came in today. I didn't know we _had_ an ergonomics guy. I'm pleased. Proactivity is nice, and he had some useful suggestions as he went desk to desk working with us. Given how long we spend sitting in front of computers typing, that's seriously handy. Also, awesome boss continues to be awesome. Yay!

My birthday itself was fun; I declared Saturday to be my unofficial bday, got yummy food from the West Side Market (including some excellent delmonico steaks and baklava), dropped some acid, and spent the day getting nothing productive done. The hot tub was great. Monday (my real bday) I happened to be on a shift where I could get a ride with a coworker, so I didn't have to bus it, and it was a ridiculously quiet day at work, and Bec and Grafton made me tasties for when I got home (steak and raspberries and pound cake), and Caleb got me a copy of a book I really dig, and wanted to have in the house (Your Inner Fish), because it's got great diagrams and reference material, and I keep wanting to reference it. And Bec and Jer got me a Eureka comic that turned up just the day after I was lamenting the wait for new Eureka episodes!

In house news, I'm still loving having the houses, but I'm also struggling with the typical new home-owner "Damn, everything is so expensive" stress. I'm getting better and better at finding things inexpensively, though. This weekend we're getting a delivery of five 55-gallon plastic food-grade barrels, suitable for conversion to water barrels, for $50 total. So much better than paying $80-$300 a piece for premade. Now we'll be able to reuse our rainwater for the garden, and minimize some of our water runoff concerns (there's concrete very close to the houses, and non-ideal grading -- the more we collect, the less gets down around the foundation).

Our relationship with our one real neighbor continues to develop, though! She may be working longer hours soon, and she's asked about petsitting for her little pom Coco. I'm pleased about this both because of the bridge-building it reinforces, and because it'll mean another critter around the house to get to know. I was missing Spike earlier today, and I was horribly tempted to get overly friendly with the stray(?) cat in our parking lot. Do not need more pets. Do not. Have promised not to adopt anything new until at least next August. Must satisfy cravings for new-critter interaction in other ways. That is something really specific that I very much enjoy, though... Getting to know a new animal and winning them over. It's part of what makes me a total sucker.

And because I'm a sucker, here's another ShroomHead pic, this time from right after we both woke up.

Shroom sleeps on my head.  After we both woke up. Shroom sleeps on my head. After we both woke up.



And here ends my belated and now seriously overlong post.
So, I went to the Good Vibrations Indie Erotic Film Festival, which is traveling the country at the moment. Definitely an evening of good old-fashioned smutty fun; check it out if it's coming to your city!

Bonuses: Free mini-vibe when we came in, as well as a gift-bag raffle. Surprise Burlesque! Yay! (she sat in my lap)

and...

Carol Queen!

I'm a huge fangirl; her book Real Live Nude Girl came along at just the right time for me, when I was about 20 and still figuring out all my bi-poly-kinky-activist stuff. She's a large part of the political structure of my views on sexuality and sexuality-related activism, and she's also the original inspiration for me becoming a patient-instructor; I first read about the concept in one of her essays, and thought "Wow, I'd love to do that!", and then set the idea aside because I was living in the middle of rural Ohio. When I moved to Cleveland and found out about the possibility, I absolutely leapt at the chance, primed by that previous exposure to the concept. She was very sweet to me, even when I was all goofy and quoted one of her lines to her; a line in a hypothetical letter to her mother about "you never understood how important sexuality was to me -- what a journey I was making of it". That particular line struck me so hard that I still remember exactly where I was sitting when I read it (outside a little cafe next door to an indie theater in Columbus on a gorgeous weekday afternoon).

The short films were a fascinatingly mixed bag. Some funny, some sweet, some thoroughly WTF, some hot as hell. Carol made a point of talking about their desire to get a broader diversity of material that was represented here, and afterwards, we did see why; most of the pieces were featuring pretty average-sized white people, and it would've been nice to see some expansion beyond that in various ways. She encouraged everyone to submit entries to this year's competition, which has a June deadline. There's a bit of pondering going on in our house.
I'm... I'm... out of puzzles!

My recent jigsaw habit has gotten positively ludicrous. I just finished a shipment of ten puzzles (about 1/2 500-piece and 1/2 1000 piece) that came in less than a month ago. I'm going back to Sudoku until my budget can handle more...

This weekend is going to be Spring Cleaning time in the house. The weather's been great this week, and it's a good feeling. I'm starting to get mentally prepared for better weather and more energy. I'm also finally back to patient-instructing; I had a session last week and one this week, after being MIA since October. It's a great reminder of my passions, and gets my life feeling more "back in line" -- even when the extra hours in my day exhaust me, the psychological rewards are immediate and dramatic. The nurse prac students I got these past two sessions were especially awesome, too. Interested, and clueful, and fun to work with. One woman actually hugged me before I left, she was so excited about everything she'd learned, and how much less nervous she was. I'm a damned good teacher, and I love doing it, and doing something that I think is so necessary to better women's health care. And I get immediate positive feedback almost every time. How many jobs offer that? No wonder I can't imagine giving it up, and feel the psychological effects when I'm away for long. I'm also back to clinic escorting this month, after having only handled the schedules for the past six months or so, first because of the flare-from-hell, and then out of worries of triggering a new one, since winter escorting is particularly hard on my fibro in the best of times. That's a passion in a similar way to patient-instructing, although also similarly in conflict with my energy levels at times, so knowing I'll be back out there this month is psychologically refreshing.

Work is really going pretty well at the moment; the collective mood in the office (and especially in my own head, given my personal conflicts with him) is as close to beatific as it ever is. I've been really enjoying the merger with the other helpdesks, and I'm liking the new folks around me in the office a good deal. C and I are both loudmouth troublemakers, and we hit it off pretty immediately, and were quickly wondering if they'd end up regretting seating us next to each other. One of the reasons I stay in this job is that I really do love most of my coworkers. After 8 years there, they're a sort of "work-family", and it results in me getting a kick out of doing things to make their lives easier, and I've been able to do more and more of that recently, which is fun, and suits my generally communal nature.

Things with the new system are slowly getting the bugs worked out, with Boss leaving by the end of the month, and his self-protective "Don't ever talk to Grandboss without my permission, even though she specifically asks you to" attitude no longer affecting us. Sent Grandboss email about something that'd smooth things out in the transition almost immediately, and although it was ignored by boss last week, Grandboss had a reply back next day, and had started taking action immediately. I have a lot more hope for improvement in the processes with the new app now that we'll be dealing with her directly, and not with his stumbling blocks of incompetence and total cluelessness and paranoid self-protection. And although work is still pretty wall-to-wall busy most days, we're nowhere near as underwater as we were, and I'm starting to get back a bit of mental energy for attention to other things. I'm still not reading LJ regularly, but I'm caught up on email, and catching more LJ intermittently, at least. I'm hoping I might actually have the brain-power and focus for a book! Ooh! Seriously, that's been driving me nuts. I've been coming home from work so mentally exhausted that I can barely put words together coherently, let alone focus on reading, and I'm missing the font of new ideas to play with and talk about. I was saying to Mom that I've been having a hard time calling folks or making contact recently (more so than usual, even), because there's just been so little to talk about -- it's been mostly work and health for months. Hell, I've barely been able to handle movies more intellectually challenging than SciFi Channel critter schlockfests.

And after being relationally introverted for so long, I'm coming out of that, too. I think it's a conflation of some cool things coming up and the normal effects of Spring. I'm hoping to make it to Chicago some weekend this month (thank god for cheap bus tickets and available crash space) to see [livejournal.com profile] jokervalentine, whom I haven't seen since end of summer, although we'd stayed in pretty close touch, and I've really been enjoying how that friendship has been evolving. And a local mutual interest that got derailed in the process of developing last fall has surprisingly reappeared, and I'm very psyched about that, and where it may go. Thanks to the suggestion of poly-friendly family (thanks, [livejournal.com profile] jajy1979, I'm also going to get at least a bit of time with [livejournal.com profile] lunatickle and [livejournal.com profile] fabulousmisst in May, on either end of a D.C. trip to hang out with my family, and I've rescheduled my tattoo appt and visit with [livejournal.com profile] forestfire for the weekend of June 20th. [livejournal.com profile] grf has his big show coming up in April, and I definitely intend to be in Michigan for that ([livejournal.com profile] cjdoyle and [livejournal.com profile] jenx, it'd be great to see you then, too!). [livejournal.com profile] limbicquestion is in town this coming week, and I'm psyched to see her and catch up. And [livejournal.com profile] syrinx_77 is almost completely moved in down the street, which makes me inexpressibly happy.

And it was great to be down at Kenyon last weekend for the Peep Alumni Meeting. Although it was the beginning of Spring Break for the students, we did get to meet a decent number of the current actives, trade stories of scandals past, and plot our overthrow of the Kenyon administration *grin*. I especially got a lot of time to hang out with [livejournal.com profile] leveldeaded, who I see much too rarely. And I love the intergenerational connection in the Peeps. We had folks from class of '76 to class of '12, and although we have a lot of different experiences, there really is a common thread that makes connecting comfortably so much easier than it often is across generations, at least among those of us who all have enough in common that we all chose to stay at least somewhat connected to the group for the long haul.

I might have another post or two in me, but I think this is enough for one...
Fat Naked Awesomeness

Good news and progress in dealing with eldercare and sexuality )

An Update on the At Your Cervix Project )

A belated but cheering and downright cute article about Obama calling Gene Robinson )

I can't wait for My Name is Bruce


Oh, and I finished The Prehistory of Sex with very mixed feelings. He brings up a lot of interesting ideas, but he skips all over the place in terms of inserting his own theories, some of which I find more plausible and interesting than others. Interesting for a new perspective, and I really like his underlying views of sexuality, and willingness to look at the full breadth of sexual behaviour and gender identity, but I wouldn't recommend reading it as an authoritative source without some additional context.
Training today, so nothing to much, but wanted to say again how much I love www.couchsurfing.com. We've got a couchsurfer today and tomorrow, and she's utterly awesome. Just finished nursing school, in town for a nursing conference, we geeked about patient-instructing (I had awesome NP students last night). She's even familiar with the At Your Cervix documentary!. Bec and I gave her the Cleveland tourism talk (about why we love it here), so she should be out exploring today, and hopefully having a good time.
This seems like the most accurate analysis of Palin's political approach that I've seen, given what I'm pulling together from various articles and sources. The more I read, the more she reminds me of Bush, honestly.

Election crap in Ohio still happening I'm planning to work Election Protection again this year.

Life's really just fine, but I've been wandering the edges of a depression, and also flaring a bit. Between the two, I'm exceedingly low energy, and just want to sleep all the time. Hence the lack of postiness. Students were good last night, though, which was a nice pick-me-up, and I have a second date tonight, which should be fun. Also, stress at work has decreased substantially. Our little office revolt seems to have paid off; things have been really quite calm and good recently (although busy as ever).

I have, however, been having a good deal of fun working on research for my tattoo. Now that we've gotten so far on what's already on, we're ready to start planning locations and selections for some of the other figures, moving down my side and leg. After lots of research, finding a bunch of fascinating new images, and lots of debate, I've narrowed it down (via spreadsheet, of course *eyeroll*) to my list of relatively final selections (some changes may happen as we try to determine placement). *bounce* Yay! There are a few that aren't online (from my original research), but maybe when I'm home one of these nights I'll post links to those that are. Or get really motivated, and scan everything in.

Other than that, I've been doing obscene amounts of Sudoku and watching the first season of 30 Rock and a lot of old Doctor Who. Not much interesting to discuss. Really shocked at how long it's been since I've read a book (I think close to a month, which is utterly bizarre for someone who usually reads a book every few days), but I just haven't had the mental energy, first with everything going crazy-good, and now with the mood slump, combined with all the political articles there are to read at the moment. I am short-attention-span girl at the moment. And I want a nap.
Feel free to pass this along to any interested locals; I'm posting it around some local communities as well.

________________________________________________________________

Interested in women's and men's reproductive health?

Would you like to help teach medical and advanced practice nursing students how to provide the best possible reproductive health care to their patients?

Consider training as a patient-instructor, a specialized form of standardized patient. Learn to guide students through well-woman or male genitourinary exams, as both the model and the instructor. No previous experience necessary, full training provided as part of the program.


Help make a difference in the health care we all receive!

Work is very part-time, weekday evenings, $20/hr.

For more information, contact:

Stephanie Berger

Cleveland Free Clinic

216 721 4010 voice mail only: x1613
I've been back to patient-instructing after not being on the schedule much in the past couple of months. Right now it's Residents, who are actually my favorite in many ways, since we work with them on a full medical history role-play. This allows me to do some educating on topics I don't normally get to in the normal course of teaching the exam itself.

I've been thrilled with all four I've had this week, and been having a great time teaching again, but last night blew me away.

Every so often we get a student through one of our programs who stands so far above the crowd that we call and let their program know, personally. Steph's making that call for this woman, on my request. Wow. Haven't heard a medical history done that well, that appropriately, that thoroughly, with only the barest bits of tweaking from me (she was so excellent I could just focus on "fine-tuning" tiny details), in the eight years I've been working in the program. Even more astounding, from her accent English isn't her first language -- it's hard to navigate sexual history well in your first language without tripping all over things. Doing it at all well in a second language is incredible. Doing it that unbelievably well, down to details of phrasing, is mind-boggling.

Additional little happy note? In talking to Steph later, turns out she came through our program as a second year.
No, really!

I just discovered that there's quite an assortment of medical videos on Youtube. How handy -- I should point Steph toward these. I haven't watched these in detail yet, but the bits I caught all seemed pretty standard. These are just a semi-random sample:
Recto-vaginal exam

male genital exam
I also found a bunch of other sex ed stuff. I'll have to start wandering around and checking it out. I hadn't really thought about Youtube as an educational resource in that regard (it's been blocked from work for ages, so I generally hadn't wandered it too much), but that's cheering (although most of the comment threads are not *eyeroll*). I wonder if I look hard enough I can find a copy of the video we use before the second-year sessions.


OK, fucking random. As I was still in the process of writing this, the movie Grafton's watching, All Over a Guy suddenly had a bit about testicular self-exam.

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