One of my most transformative moments was a single night with a friend, back in early college. For reasons to do with my asshole older cousins, up to that point I wasn't able to be emotionally open and physically open at the same time; it felt like giving up too much control of the situation. Emotionally present _or_ sexual. You couldn't have both at once, not from me, no way no how.
I think it mattered that the friend in question was a _friend_ not a romantic interest. I don't even recall if we actually got around to standard old PIV sex, honestly. What I do recall, vividly, was waking up the next morning knowing my world had shifted on its axis. That could not have been less of a "walk of shame" on any level; it was glorious!
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Date: 2015-05-12 05:16 pm (UTC)One of my most transformative moments was a single night with a friend, back in early college. For reasons to do with my asshole older cousins, up to that point I wasn't able to be emotionally open and physically open at the same time; it felt like giving up too much control of the situation. Emotionally present _or_ sexual. You couldn't have both at once, not from me, no way no how.
I think it mattered that the friend in question was a _friend_ not a romantic interest. I don't even recall if we actually got around to standard old PIV sex, honestly. What I do recall, vividly, was waking up the next morning knowing my world had shifted on its axis. That could not have been less of a "walk of shame" on any level; it was glorious!