Free range ramble...
Jun. 25th, 2008 07:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
moominmuppetI'm kind of bored and braindead; out of energy, debating whether I can nap at the moment, or want to wait 'til after Mark finishes making dinner. The folks I'd particularly like to catch on IM aren't on, I just finished my book, and I don't have the focus for plot on TV. Bec's at dance, Grafton's at his sister's. I don't really feel like having a phone conversation because bad connections drive me utterly insane; I actually like IM better than any other form of communication (except in-person in quiet environments) because then I don't get frustrated and worried that I'm missing some key word here or there. Interesting that I feel that way, rather than missing all the visual and intonational context that one loses in that modality. Huh. I guess it's partly because I tend to choose my own words very carefully and specifically most of the time (this doesn't mean I show good judgement, necessarily, but that I think about exactly how I want to say whatever I want to say), and I want to be able to avoid miscommunication from something misheard. And I often reread a lot in the course of intense conversations, making sure my memory and perception are accurate. The extra seconds to think, and the chance to slow down and "re-listen" to what was just said, do help in terms of judgement to some extent, though.
I've been thinking a lot about the fibro recently. Life's gotten very busy with commitments I really don't want to have to raincheck. I'm also being very hard on my body physically -- this amount of sex, frankly, is a big change in my exercise level, generally in rather marathon sessions. And it's stormy season, which means I've been more flaring than not for the past couple months since the weather changed. And I've been staying up much later much more frequently. Cumulatively, it's pushing the balance I've found in life to keep myself functional enough to stay employed full-time. I'm really feeling that now about PTO time. There's so much stuff I'd like to be able to take off for, but I take a lot of sick time during the year, and I feel the pinch. It's frustrating. Mostly it's the fatigue that really gets me. There always has to be a serious consideration of my energy level, and how much sleep I need to get before I have to be up again. *sigh* Blah. Life could be a lot worse. This is only a moderate frustration in comparison.
OK, think I'm going to nap now.
I've been thinking a lot about the fibro recently. Life's gotten very busy with commitments I really don't want to have to raincheck. I'm also being very hard on my body physically -- this amount of sex, frankly, is a big change in my exercise level, generally in rather marathon sessions. And it's stormy season, which means I've been more flaring than not for the past couple months since the weather changed. And I've been staying up much later much more frequently. Cumulatively, it's pushing the balance I've found in life to keep myself functional enough to stay employed full-time. I'm really feeling that now about PTO time. There's so much stuff I'd like to be able to take off for, but I take a lot of sick time during the year, and I feel the pinch. It's frustrating. Mostly it's the fatigue that really gets me. There always has to be a serious consideration of my energy level, and how much sleep I need to get before I have to be up again. *sigh* Blah. Life could be a lot worse. This is only a moderate frustration in comparison.
OK, think I'm going to nap now.
