*stress*

[moominmuppet]

The thing I notice most about being really exhausted is how much more I stress that I'm forgetting important things, losing track of something amorphous. In general, I just get anxious much more easily because my brain feels so overloaded and untrustworthy. Right now I'm having trouble dealing with more than the most cursory IMing -- it's Friday, so work's not quite so bad as earlier in the week (although we've got an extra person out), but the accumulated exhaustion is more than making up for the dip in workload, and I'm getting overwhelmed and losing track of my trains of thought frighteningly easily.

Mom and Dad just called; they're on their way down to General Convention now. It was wonderful to see them, I just wish it hadn't happened to fall in the middle of work hell, when I couldn't take time off, and was coming home every day already worn out.

Today I'm stressing about finances, and remembering to pay all the bills, and what's still out there that hasn't processed through the account yet, and which bus tickets I need to buy when to where, and when my PT appt and counseling appt next week are, and remembering to write back to emails, etc, etc, etc. And I really do think that almost all of it is already on my "To Do" list, but that's not reassuring me; some part of my brain is absolutely positive that I'm forgetting something important, and I'm going to screw something up.

Tonight I'm supposed to get together with my coworker/friend who's out for surgery, but after than I really need to try to catch up on sleep better -- I'm supposed to be volunteering at Pride tomorrow at 9am (what the hell was I thinking??), and I'm going to be there pretty much all day, since lunatickle's band doesn't play 'til 2:30pm, and chameleonpixie will be meeting me there after she gets off work. I really suspect I won't be going to the Burlesque show on Sunday, though. I need some recuperation time. I'm much too frayed and frazzled.

I wouldn't suggest bothering to talk to me much today; I'm likely to be grumpy and irritable and less than ideal company.

Comments

[calebbullen.livejournal.com]

Say hi to co-worker from me.

If you guys are doing a card or flowers or anything, count me in por favor.

I'm probably like two weeks late on that idea right.

feh.

[moominmuppet.livejournal.com]

I didn't actually see her, but I talked to her and she's sounding so much better, and like she's getting really good pain relief from the procedure, which is excellent news. Made me very happy.