Freaked about finances
Jan. 3rd, 2003 10:31 amGod, I hate the shaking. The "dealing-with-creditors-where's-it-all-going-to-come-from" shaking/hyperventilating/heart pounding panic. Objectively, things are bad right now, but nowhere near as bad as they've been at their worst. I'm reacting more strongly than I need to, though, because it's hitting all those buttons. Those "what if it happens again" buttons -- my life's collapsed around me before, and I'm still not over the fear of it happening again, even though it's really not likely at the moment, and I'm a different person now than I was then, with better coping skills. Still, I hate those moments of panic. I'm going to go outside, read a chapter of Terry Pratchett, and try to get my autonomic nervous system under control now.